Day 1: Resisted getting out of bed for the fear of taking on this job. 2 weeks of a formulated liquid drink to fill my calorie intake while allowing my small intestines to heal and starve the bacteria overgrowth that has lead to SIBO. I mixed my first drink with hope and mapped out the days supplements. You can take your supplements while on the elemental liquid diet but they must be spaced apart from activated charcoal and thyroid medicine. The drink tastes sweet but has a chalky after taste so I have to wash it down with water. It was recommended to me to drink the mix slowly, very cold, over ice, and through out the day to keep hunger at bay. I finished the first drink while talking to friend on the phone then doing some meditation and reading emails. So far so good. 

 11 am: I took the first does of pills and read a book to keep my mind off the hunger building in my mind. 

 12pm: Mixed my drink for lunch and dove into a Netflix show to take my mind off of it.  Took a hot shower and laid down as my body feels very tired and heavy. I wasn’t able to have coffee this morning and I can feel the effects. 

 As I lay here thinking about how did I get into this situation. Was it chemo? Was it grief? Was it the many bottles of wine I have drank over the past years. Was it fast food I ate as a teen? Was it anxiety and depression from cancer and mom and always feeling like I am never enough. It is the struggle to people please and let people into my life who drain me? It could be so many different causes that I don’t have the answer. Maybe it is a lesson I am to learn to help others? Maybe its a pity call for attention. At this point I don’t really know what the cause it. Maybe it is as simple as food poisoning or drinking to much lake water or travel abroad? I can’t focus on the past I just need to move forward day by day healing as much as I can, in my own time. 

 3:30pm I will mix another drink and sip it slowly as I get ready to pick up my kids from school. This is going to be a long two weeks. 

 I am feeling a faint headache now and some stomach pains. Very faint but present. I am worried I will not make it to 2 weeks. I have to stay home so I am no tempted to cheat. Now I know how a vampire feels, one person who walks by me with a burger is going to get mauled. 

 I have taken my supplements of omegas, alpha crs, slim and sassy, terrazyme, and digestion to help the process. Also DHEA. I read Neroli, Lavender and Peppermint are good for digestive health. I can make up a roller bottle to roll on my stomach throughout the day. Until then……

 4:00 pm mixed another drink as a snack. Got dressed put some make up on and went to town to pick up my kiddos. At 5:30 I have an hour massage schedules to that will help start the detox process and take my mind off of eating. 

 7:00pm I made a dinner shake and hid in my bedroom so I wouldn't  be tempted to go to the kitchen. My poor family has had to go out to eat every night. The kids love it but I know Mat wants a home cooked meal.   Had a moment of weakness and asked Mat if this was worth it. 

9:00pm Took another set of Interfase and went to bed. 

 Day 2 : I didn't sleep very well last night. Very vivid dreams and tossed and turned. Had some pain in my arms, which I though was food related but since I haven’t eaten anything…?

 7:35am Breakfast Interphase shake with ice. Took time for self care and spiritual growth with "Rise Sister Ride"  and oracle cards. 

 9 am set of interphase diet then slept until noon.

 Noon lunch shake. The need for real food is setting in strong so I  use Grapefruit and Peppermint to help satisfy my need for something to eat. The smell of the oils gives me a sense of eating something delicious and keeps my hunger cravings at bay.

Dinner: Shake ......:(